Honestly, based on how I've been feeling these past couple of days its as if I wouldn't be able to grow from all the shit that was happening. Right now, for this past few days I've been literally at the library just doing my homework and trying to focus on school. I've been seriously going through so many problems with my studies, that I've even been thinking of switching my major and dropping SHSM just so I can get into that business program at Ryerson. Fuck that, lol .. honestly, I know now that if you really want something in life, you just can't go and give it all up just when things get hard. Small lesson that basically killed two birds with one stone, haha. I mean if you think about it, that advice pretty much says it all .. When things get hard in life, I shouldn't just go and drop it and think that I can't get back at top just cause everything is going so bad. Honestly, I see now at how much stronger I can be, and at the fact that even though I've been going through a lot these past few months, I really did become a stronger person because of it all. I mean I'm even surprised at myself that I haven't broken down as much as I thought I would have. I have been able to see the friends that disappeared on me during my worst times, and those that stepped it up.For those that went all MIA on me, you know who you are, and you and I know that the reason for your MIAness is pretty much why all this shit is happening, but honestly, GROW THE FUCK UP. Like really, how old are you and you're gonna go and be a hypocrite by giving some really great advice to someone and when it comes to you being in the position of where you're pretty much that person, your gonna go back on your word. Tell me, what does that say about you? I'm not gonna hate on you, I've been hiding that hate for the past few months already, and honestly, I'm not gonna give you another minute or even second of MY time to even think about your bullshit, because you are no longer an importance in my life. I no longer care on hating you, and don't get me wrong that doesn't mean I want to see you dead, lol .. No, not at all, cause see with me I can learn to be mature and act my age, .. but all I'm saying is I no longer want to hate you, but on the same note I no longer care for you. I'm done with wasting all my energy on something that obviously isn't an issue you even care about, so why should I keep on pushing it? You said it yourself, "you can't please everyone" or that time you said "if they don't want to put in the effort, then rachel don't waste your time on people like that" .. and because I'm not LIKE YOU I'm actually going to take that advice. I'm done with it all. Fuck you and your bullshit.
